ALMOST Famous

Upon waking in my bed this morning I remembered that it was General Conference Weekend!
O what a glorious weekend it is!!


I quickly turned on my new MacBook and began watching live on lds.org.
I had missed the first two speakers or so, but I caught most of the action. (If you can call it action.)
This made me reflect on a time that I was actually IN General Conference and sang in the Conference Center.  I bet you didn't know that I did that, huh?  Well I did!
Let me tell you about it...

In the 2005-2006 school year I was a student at the University of Utah located in the somewhat beautiful Salt Lake valley.  While there I was in a show choir called Encore!  While in this choir it was expected of us to sing, dance, and entertain for the many crowds that gathered to see us do so.  It was a jolly good time, I assure you.
I also partook in Institute at the UofU Institute!  I met a lot of great people while there and in my show choir.
BUTSPENSERWHATDOESTHISHAVETODOWITHANYTHING?!
Calm down.  I'm getting there.
...
Where was I?
Oh ya...
During the April 2006 conference the UofU Institute and the Orem Institute created a combined choir that was privileged to sing during the Priesthood session of conference.
I, being the singing beast that I am, partook in this choir!
and so I got to sing on the stand where the Mormon Tabernacle Choir usually sings, and got to be less than 50 feet away from a Prophet of God.  It was quite amazing!


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All of this is what I reflected on this morning when I woke up, and so I began a search for the video of us singing our couple songs.
AND TO MY SURPRISE I ACTUALLY FOUND ONE!
Strangely enough it had only been uploaded about 7 months ago!
And so I will also post it on our video section.
I will post the one song that you are actually able to see me in and I will make a challenge:  If you can find me, and show me, or post a comment that indicates that you actually know where I am, not just a generic comment that says "YOU ARE IN THE PICTURE, OMGLOLZ!!!1!11"
I'll even give you a hint: Look around 42 seconds in and around 2:27.  You will see me, I promise.  Even if you don't know that you are seeing me.


That's all, really.  Nothing else to update! :)

~Sp-ecial


P.S. Can I also just add a little note on the bottom here?
OF COURSE I CAN!
It disturbs me a little bit that when I check where the traffic for this blog is coming from, the second source is apparently a news story about a "man arrested raping little sister using housecat as sex toy."
...
What on Earth are you people looking at before stumbling upon this?!

Details Details...

So, you remember that one time I posted from an iPad?  Those days are in the past...and they sucked.

Was it fun being able to touch everything and interact with it and make it go without the medium of a keyboard?  SURE!  But now I have a more reliable source of blogging goodness.

I finally gave in to my carnal desires and am the proud owner of a new MacBook Pro.

I am a PC guy.  Always have been, PROBABLY always will be.  Unless for some reason you have to sell your soul to Steve Jobs because he bought out, and is now running with an iron first, the pearly gates.

Anyway, I like it.  It's fun.  It's sexy. (and yes, sexual attractiveness IS something that I value in a computer.  No one wants a Mac2.  NO ONE.

Anyway, so like I promised, now that I have a more reliable source of typing (that fully understands the internet and that I want a break when I hit enter instead of having to go back and manually enter in < br > to every place I wanted a break.)YESTHATREALLYHAPPENED

I wil now post more regularly!...also due to my over-abundance of free time.

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Related to that whole "free" time thing, I really wanted to pick up FInal Fantasy IX right where I left off last August.  The problem is that I was having a lot of fun watching daytime Cable television and playing Plants vs. Zombies, so I didn't get to it until last night.

TURNSOUTLEAVINGFINALFANTASYALONEFORALONGPERIODOFTIMEISNOTAGOODIDEA.

Upon returning to this mystical land, I was lost, confused, and entirely useless when it came to managing my HORDES of items and collectable goodies.

This quickly wore off, however.

After 30 minutes I was back to micromanaging every plot twist* and random encounter* like a pro!  It was fun, and I may have played until almost 4 in the a.m.  I also may have wanted to play really badly tonight, but told myself I would lie in bed instead and post this.

That's right.  I am currently lying in my bed typing this.  In my pajamas.

in bed.

How does that make you feel?  Knowing that I am currently thinking about you reading this while I am laying horizontally in a place of so much pleasure and goodness?

*In case you know nothing of Final Fantasy, these two elements are staples of JUST about every Final Fantasy game ever made.

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There is nothing to report on the lady front.

As far as I'm concerned, the enemy doesn't even know there is a battle on that front.  They didn't even show up!

My men are on the front lines, squandering in their fox holes, pooping in BUCKETS, and there isn't even an enemy on the other side of the field.

Talk about sad warfare.
If love is a battlefield, my soldiers are going to start killing each other out of boredom soon.

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So...

The other day Mike-al Jordan and I, Young Speasy, were in a male beauty pageant.  It was exciting.  Not TOO exciting...but enough to create a sense of non-monotony in my life.
I will post a video of a certain part of it as soon as I am done writing this post.

DON'TWORRYIDON'TPUKEORANYTHINGINIT

ok.

i lied.

I DO puke.

But it's all in the good name of fun, right?

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It is VERY much my bedtime now.  I am sleepy.

and therefore it is my bedtime.

~Sp-ine Tingling

Ace Dan 2012

Aw yeah, ninjas! You KNOW I ain't dead!! Ha HA!!
That's right, I'm back from the dead. And by dead I actually mean just silent on this blog.
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Random note, I'm watching Conan right now and the musical guest is Macy Grey...
WHAT?
When did she become relevant, again? I can't hear her name without thinking of saying good-bye and choking or walking away and stumbling.
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Look over there! It's a bright and shiny change of subject!!
(give yourself +9 to agility if you ACTUALLY just looked somewhere other than your computer screen)
(give yourself +7 to virginity if you actually just marked THAT down somewhere)
I can neither confirm nor deny the fact that I may or may not be sitting on a toilet while typing this very thing... BUT I can confirm that whatever I'm doing right now makes B-rizzle proud.(Ya! It's totally time for nicknames, again!! Aren't you excited?!)
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So, I know jut what you're thinking. Which right now is "How on earth does he know what I'm thinking?" but right before that you were thinking "Sp-ectre Vision, what have you been doing with your life?"
Which I must admit, Sp-ectre Vision is kind of a silly nickname. No points for Gryffindor.
Well, let me tell you what I've been doing!
I spent the entire last semester working. Instead of schooling...it sucked. While I somewhat enjoyed the time to NOT be in school, I hated going to work everyday. Well, I hated driving everyday to a job that definitely didn't pay enough to be driving to it everyday.
I digress.

Um...

Where was I going with this?

Oh yes. I was describing my life...
Life was good.
Except not so much.
I totally got screwed out of a break during the holidays, ultimately stealing me away from my family. So I went into the next 3 months of work ultimately knowing that the end of my time with Best Buy was near. That I would have to end soon so that I could spend some time at home with my family!

PERFECT SEGUE

That takes me to where I am RIGHT now!
Well, somewhat. Not EXACTLY where I am now...because I am sitting on my couch in my basement. Watching Conan.vtyping this.

But I'm home in Minnesota with my family. Jobless. But so very happy.
With a bowl of ice cream next to me. Actually...it's an empty bowl of ice cream. So really, it's just an empty bowl...that used to have ice cream in it.
Wow, that took too much work.
Why can't you just understand me the first time...we have communication problems.

MANIAMEASILYDISTRACTED
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Being home, I have a bone to pick with all those people I know out at school who have not ONE but TWO X-Chromosomes. That's right, you, women.
I have now attended the school of my choice for 11 months. And I have gotten nothing.
Don't act like you don't know what I mean.
Not so much as a peck on the cheek.
Nada.
Zip.
Nothing.

ON THE CONTRARY...
I am home in Minnesota for less than 12 hours and I get not only one, but TWO kisses!
And so I pose the question "what's up with that??"
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Man...I just keep getting distracted. It really make me lose steam for posting.
It's a good thing that I basically got everything I needed to say off of my chest. At least that I can remember...
If I think of more I need to say later I will say it! Don't even think I won't.

~Sp-end Time Not Money

...AND ANOTHER THING...

HAPPY 2012!

THIS IS THE SECOND POST OF 2012!
2012!

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Be sure to check out the newest video posted in the video section to see how amazing I am.

~Spent-All-His-Money-On-A-Two-Dollar-Horse

These Are Some Things I Can't Deal With Mentally...

I've been thinking about this blog post that I was going to make for all of Shuffle'N'Flow for a while now, but it usually only comes back to me at night time when I am BEYOND dead tired...and then I forget or get discouraged thinking that I'll do it the next day.
Well, the next day never came, so I had to force myself to do it now or I would never get around to it.
Perhaps this is my quarter-life crisis, if such a thing exists...


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Now, I know what you're thinking (like always)...and you're saying "...But Sp-Easy Going Spease!  How have you EVER come across something in this life that not even you can comprehend?!"  Well, let me tell you:
LIFE IS COMPLICATED SOMETIMES, MMKAY?!
...So lay off, aiight?


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There are just some things in life that I have come deal with internally without giving them a lot of thought, or devoting a whole butt-ton of cognitive resources towards or I might blow a gasket.  So it's easier to just not deal with them and file them under "D" for DO NOT UNDERSTAND.  Well before this goes on any longer, hows about we just dive in head first, k?


1.) I can't believe that I have been home from my mission for over three years.
-Seriously!  When did the time go by?!  Last thing I remember I was in high school chillni' with my friends havin' a gay ol' time!  Next thing I know, life is complicated, I am back from a mission and I am not freakin' married.  (I'll get back to this point, don't worry.)
D'you remember that part in Jacob when he says "and also our lives passed away like as it were unto us a dream." Well do ya?!  Because it says it.  I can totally find it if you want me to.
--BESIDES THE POINT--
Well, that is what I feel my life is like.  It has all come and gone like a dream.  I know that I served a mission, but it all seems so long ago, and sometimes I think to myself "How on earth did you ever do that, self?!  How did you leave friends and family for two years and just do church-y stuff??  You have a hard enough time getting out of bed in the morning and forcing yourself to put on pants!  I know, because I'm you."
And I think about the people I met, who I barely have any contact with anymore, and I wonder how their lives are and I wonder if in the grand scheme of life if they are a main character and I was a supporting actor or the other way around...
And I remember all the things that happened between graduation and mission and between mission and now and I think to myself "How did I have time in my life to fit in all of those things?!  And what was I thinking when I did that!!"
When reflecting upon my life it all seems very surreal, like I was placed in this body with someone elses memories, because there is no way that they could all be mine!  (Besides the fact that I know for sure they are all mine)
Reminiscing gets trippy if you do it too much or too often.


2.)I can't believe I'm not freakin' married.
-Growing up I had my whole life planned out, and there always seemed to be plenty of time to do everything I wanted WITH ROOM TO SPARE.
I was wrong.
One of the things that that seemed like the easiest hurdle to overcome was marriage.  That would be easy because I could just come home and marry my high school sweetheart, whoever it was who would wait for me while I was in the mission field, or whoever I met first that I had sufficient interest in.  Because women are easy enough to understand and get along with, right?
I was wrong, again.
Relationships are INCREDIBLY complicated and multi-faceted with no way to understand them and solve the puzzle that is them in the foreseeable future.
So I sit here in my apartment alone while my friends are back home going on dates or cuddling or whatever it is that normal people do with their time while I sit on my chair and blog about how little I have accomplished with my once thought to be unending, always-fulfilling life.


This was supposed to be the easy part, remember.


3.) I can't believe that God is so forgiving.
-I needed one in here to somewhat lighten the mood and be shorter, because I could hear all three of you groan "Speaster Bunny, shut up already!"
Seriously!  He is far too awesome, forgiving, and merciful for my good.  Sometime I feel as if it would better if every time I chose wrong that something terrible would happen like a bunny would explode in a lightning bolt on the hood of my car or something crazy, but instead I choose wrong and then I come crawling back with my guilty-feeling self and try and find some way to forgive myself while also seeking His forgiveness.  There is just no way for me to understand how Someone can be so merciful, EVEN AFTER including the whole Eternally loving stuff.  I just can't make sense of it.


I would have damned me long ago.


4.) I can't believe it's not butter.
-THAT was the one to lighten the mood.


But seriously, if it's not butter, I'll be a monkeys uncle.


5.)I can't believe that all of these experiences are random chance, and that the entirety of creation is also chance.
-I believe in science.  Trust me. I love logic and I love things being explained to me.
I ALSO believe in religion.
BUTSPENSERYOUCAN'TDOTHATIT'SCHEATING.
Get bent, I can do what I want.
Religion is the why to the questions of life while Science is the how.
How was the Universe created?
Big Bang (or whatever scientists are calling it these days).
Why was the Universe created?
To act as a testing ground for God's children to prove themselves worthy to inherit His kingdom.
See?  Simple.
I won't get into more detail than that because it would require more time, more effort and more questions.
If I didn't believe in the exact beliefs that I do believe in, I feel like I would wake up every day and go to bed every night with loads of questions.  And I would be very uncomfortable with everything, desperately seeking a way to ease said comfortableness.


This leads me to ponder on my life.  What is my overall grand purpose here?  Who am I supposed to be when I grow up?  I know there is a plan laid out for my life, but how to I best accomplish it and when should I start?


There HAS to be a reason that I have spent a lot of nights alone.  There has to be a reason that I have spent a lot of nights sad and depressed.  There has to be a reason that I have the skill sets that I do, that I have the talents I do, that I like the things I do and do the things I do.  If there wasn't, I wouldn't be doing them/living them/developing them/being this way.  I would be someone else.
The exact personage that IS Spenser Davidson was made this way for a reason.  Was developed into this person for a reason.  I don't know what exactly that reason is yet, but I hope it is for the greater good someday.


Because thinking that I was raised this way to someday become the crazed-man in a burlap sack mask trying to blow up Gotham is just sad.


6.)I can't believe this post is going so long.
-I apologize.
I haven't made many jokes.
I haven't talked to you much.
I haven't been very entertaining.  POSSIBLY thought-provoking, but not very entertaining for sure.


It will be over soon I promise.


~Spencil


P.S. Told you it would.